The Game, Epilogue
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radhajTitle: The Game
Pairings: Tetsu x Hyde x Tetsu
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I do not claim to have any j-rockers in my possession
Warnings: Male x Male stuff. Slight OOC and AU, because this is just not how it really was. But hey, that's why this is fan fiction, right?
Summary: When Tetsu approaches Hyde to join his band, the vocalist turns out to be everything he's been made out to be and more. But is that more than the new band leader can handle?
Chapter 7
Epilogue
It might seem silly, but Tetsu really disliked prison walls. As far as he's seen, they were always either a depressing gray color or that sickening shade of green. Painting them white might have made the facility resemble a certain other institution too much, but the bassist had an inkling it would have still made him far less uncomfortable.
Of course, making anyone comfortable was not really the intention here. Not even in the visiting room, it seemed, and Tetsu had to make a conscious effort to not start tapping on the bare table with his fingers in his unreasonable nervousness as he conversed with the person in front of him. That would have certainly not helped the atmosphere.
Unfortunately, after a brief recount of how things were going by Tetsu and a reassurance that he was as well as he could be considering the circumstances by Sakura, the conversation was quickly becoming strained. Fortunately, Tetsu was not really here to do small talk with his former drummer in any case.
"Sakura," he started, when an appropriate pause in the conversation finally appeared, "I actually arranged this meeting because there's something you should hear..."
The younger man raised a confused eyebrow.
"Well, I assure you that I'll listen," he said, stating the obvious, but the bassist shook his head.
"It's something that you should hear from someone other than me," he explained and while the drummer was obviously puzzled by that even more, the leader turned to the lone door to the room and called in a little bit louder voice.
"Hyde?"
The drummer's eyes widened and just as the small figure of the singer slid into the room, he fixed his eyes onto the surface of the table in front of him, obviously refusing to grace the vocalist with even one glance. Not perturbed, Hyde strode purposefully towards the drummer, ignoring the empty seat he was probably supposed to take on the other side of the table, ignoring Tetsu, ignoring the thought of how it might look from the side and knelt beside the drummer, trying to catch his eyes but failing. That did not seem to discourage him, however.
"I guess I deserve this," he said with a self depreciating laugh, but got no response, "I didn't come here to ask for forgiveness, Sakura. I know I don't deserve that. I did, however, come to offer an apology. Though I guess even that might seem selfish in these circumstances."
The drummer's stubborn silence continued.
"I'm trying to change you know," Hyde talked on, "I know it hardly matters to you now, it's far too late, but I just thought you should know."
Unexpectedly, this finally got a reaction from the quiet man.
"I guess that means Tetsu finally succeeded in taming you," he said with a sad smile, making Hyde blink and look at Tetsu with a clear question. Tetsu, who had been the awkward onlooker up until then, shook his head to indicate he did not know what the drummer meant by that either. Sensing their confusion, Sakura explained.
"It was always obvious Tetsu would be the one to make you change. I just refused to admit that. Ken even tried to make a bet between us on when that would happen, you know," the drummer tried to fake amusement, but did not really succeed.
"That insensitive..." Tetsu started, looking angry at what he heard but the drummer cut him off.
"It was his own way of trying to warn me about how unrealistic my expectations were, you know," he said to calm the leader down and then finally turned to look at Hyde for the first time. "There was nobody putting a gun to my head and forcing me to do what I did. My own weakness is not your fault."
"I still pushed you towards it," the singer protested and Sakura just shrugged. Hyde finally rose from his position on the floor and carefully reached to embrace the younger man, obviously half expecting to be pushed away and surprised when that didn't happen. "I will always be there for you, you know. Whatever you need - help, a listening ear or a caring friend. I promise."
Later that day, after a more than he expected successful meeting that he'd granted permission for after Hyde had bugged him about it for a whole day before, he spent twelve minutes in the studio worrying that the singer had forgotten Tetsu had organized a band meeting despite the bassist's having reminded him about it whilst they were leaving the prison. His worries eventually turned out to be unfounded when the vocalist did turn up, if uncharacteristically late. Hyde had also, it seemed, forgotten he was no longer in Hawaii as he turned up in his swimming shorts.
The leader spent three seconds counting the annoyed ticks in his eye and containing and exasperated sigh. The meeting was supposed to serve as a chance to acquaintance Yukihiro with the people in L'Arc~en~Ciel, and Hyde was not giving a good first impression. But then he decided it was just as well. It was better that the hopefully future-drummer of Laruku got the idea of just how crazy the people he was about to join really were from the start.
He also had to admit that the dumbfounded expression on the skinny man's face as he caught sight of Hyde's attire was amusing. Only a little, of course.
Ken found the whole thing absolutely hilarious.
"And this, Yukihiro-san, is our elusive singer," the tall man introduced exaggeratedly, taking advantage of the fact that he'd already met with the drummer a couple times before and was now feeling qualified to explain stuff to the newcomer. "He's going through some grand "finding himself anew" phase, which, as we can see, for some reason give him some ludicrous ideas like wearing tight shorts."
"They're just simple swimming wear," Hyde protested, glaring at the guitarist.
"That correction does not really help your case, Hyde," Tetsu pointed out helpfully and was rewarded with a glare himself.
Whatever the reason was for the singer's decision to wear what he did to the practice fortunately did not interfere with his singing ability. Thus, when the meeting finally progressed enough for them to take up their instruments and try to play a few songs, it went as well as it could be hoped and they eventually left for home that night filled with hope.
Hope for what?
"A new start," Hyde murmured as the two of them were heading for their cars together, "A genuine new start. I sure as hell am going to take advantage of that. Wanna go to my apartment tonight, for a change?"
Tetsu startled at the apparent non sequitur, but then realized they'd come to their destination and it was last chance for the singer to suggest a different destination.
"Why?" He asked, not really minding the idea to change the routine of their last few days, but still curious about the reason.
"There's only one bedroom in my place," came the cheeky reply before the singer disappeared into his car and left the bassist no choice but to follow.
There was indeed only one bedroom, and only one, not really large bed. Tetsu had half a mind to back out, but that was not before he was already in bed, with Hyde at his side, hanging onto him as tightly as he'd always done the last few days whenever Tetsu let him in close enough. It was an embrace full of insecurity and a need for reassurance. It was also something so completely different from what Tetsu was used to call Hyde-like before, that the protest died on his lips while his arms tightened their own hold around he small figure while he settles in more comfortably.
"You're not going to ask today?" He inquired half-jokingly after a few moments passed as he figured the older man just forgot to do what had almost become a tradition between them the last few days.
"I figured I'll just wait until you want to," answered the other in a mumble against his chest.
"I have wanted it for a very long time," Tetsu said with a chuckle. That was hardly the problem.
Not knowing how to take that answer, Hyde's head resurfaced from where it was previously half-buried beneath the covers and he stared up at the bassist.
"Then why?.." He asked simply. There was no need to finish that sentence.
"I guess I'm afraid you don't really want the same thing that I do," the bassist explained, smiling kindly, while the singer rose up from his lying position even more.
"If it's about the way I word it," he said, gazing imploringly straight into Tetsu's eyes, "Then it doesn't matter. The words I use, they don't matter. Just like it doesn't matter if I tell you that I love you, that I adore you or that I want to spend the rest of my life with you and noone else. I mean it just the same."
The tiny man spoke urgently, as if willing the bassist to understand and with every phrase that left the vocalist's mouth and flew right into Tetsu's heart, the leader's resolve weakened until it finally melted down completely.
"It's not the wording that is the problem," He disagreed, brushing a stray strand of Hyde's hair behind his ear. "But in the end it doesn't matter, because you just convinced me all the same."
The singer's eyes still looked at him without understanding, but that was before they closed when Tetsu's lips descended on his in a gentle kiss and the reasons ceased to be important altogether.
It was so alike their first time, and yet so entirely different. The touches and the sensations that had then been blended into one breathtaking haze of pleasure now each stood out, each had its own significance. Where once every meeting of eyes was used to convey lies and deception, now they channeled only love and trust. Where once existed nurtured skill and confidence, now it was replaced by exploration and... shivers?
"You're trembling, Hyde," Tetsu stated out loud, stopping their mutual caresses and pleasuring for a moment to questioningly look down to the face of the man over whom he was now lying.
"I'm excited," Hyde smiled, "And nervous," he admitted after another second. "I've never..." the older man suddenly actually blushed and looked to the side. "It's actually my first time this way," he confessed.
At first Tetsu frowned, not getting what the other meant and then his eyes widened in sudden understanding.
"I don't really mind..." he started but Hyde started shaking his head before he could finish.
"I mind," he stressed, "It might seem silly, but it means a lot to me. That it's happening now, that it's happening with you. I want this, Tetsu. This way. I love you."
The bassist didn't even try to hide the dampness at the corners of his eyes when the words touched him as deeply as Hyde obviously meant them. It was only fair to let Hyde know it meant a lot to him as well.
"I'll be gentle," he promised, "Don't worry, I'll take care of everything."
Hyde raised his head just enough to brush the tips of their noses together.
"I know. Maybe that's why I love you."
They both smiled, but that was before the expression was ruined by another meeting of lips.
Hyde | Tetsu
Who cares about the score anyway?
Hyde grinned, crumpling the piece of paper that had faded a little from age since he'd scribbled the first numbers on it and threw it into the rubbish bin. He'd die from embarrassment if anyone saw those two little hearts.
They were far too small to show the love that existed in reality, after all.
THE END.
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Note:I didn't want to end with a sex scene.
So yeah, this is the end of "The Game". I really want to thank everybody who supported me through it - you guys are beyond awesome! I really can't express my gratitude well enough *hugs to all* ♥ ♥ ♥
Now, there are lots of stuff in this story that I purposefully left unsaid and left for the reader to figure out themselves. I hope everyone did that without any problems :) If you want to ask about something though - please feel free, I'll be happy to answer :)
One more thing: I know I promised a new project to follow this, but pretty much in the last moment I decided to go on a hiatus for a month. I'm sure some of you can figure out the reason :D I might still post something if that's how my inspiration winds will blow, and there will be a new project after November. But it's still a temporary goodbye for now :)
Pairings: Tetsu x Hyde x Tetsu
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I do not claim to have any j-rockers in my possession
Warnings: Male x Male stuff. Slight OOC and AU, because this is just not how it really was. But hey, that's why this is fan fiction, right?
Summary: When Tetsu approaches Hyde to join his band, the vocalist turns out to be everything he's been made out to be and more. But is that more than the new band leader can handle?
Chapter 7
Epilogue
It might seem silly, but Tetsu really disliked prison walls. As far as he's seen, they were always either a depressing gray color or that sickening shade of green. Painting them white might have made the facility resemble a certain other institution too much, but the bassist had an inkling it would have still made him far less uncomfortable.
Of course, making anyone comfortable was not really the intention here. Not even in the visiting room, it seemed, and Tetsu had to make a conscious effort to not start tapping on the bare table with his fingers in his unreasonable nervousness as he conversed with the person in front of him. That would have certainly not helped the atmosphere.
Unfortunately, after a brief recount of how things were going by Tetsu and a reassurance that he was as well as he could be considering the circumstances by Sakura, the conversation was quickly becoming strained. Fortunately, Tetsu was not really here to do small talk with his former drummer in any case.
"Sakura," he started, when an appropriate pause in the conversation finally appeared, "I actually arranged this meeting because there's something you should hear..."
The younger man raised a confused eyebrow.
"Well, I assure you that I'll listen," he said, stating the obvious, but the bassist shook his head.
"It's something that you should hear from someone other than me," he explained and while the drummer was obviously puzzled by that even more, the leader turned to the lone door to the room and called in a little bit louder voice.
"Hyde?"
The drummer's eyes widened and just as the small figure of the singer slid into the room, he fixed his eyes onto the surface of the table in front of him, obviously refusing to grace the vocalist with even one glance. Not perturbed, Hyde strode purposefully towards the drummer, ignoring the empty seat he was probably supposed to take on the other side of the table, ignoring Tetsu, ignoring the thought of how it might look from the side and knelt beside the drummer, trying to catch his eyes but failing. That did not seem to discourage him, however.
"I guess I deserve this," he said with a self depreciating laugh, but got no response, "I didn't come here to ask for forgiveness, Sakura. I know I don't deserve that. I did, however, come to offer an apology. Though I guess even that might seem selfish in these circumstances."
The drummer's stubborn silence continued.
"I'm trying to change you know," Hyde talked on, "I know it hardly matters to you now, it's far too late, but I just thought you should know."
Unexpectedly, this finally got a reaction from the quiet man.
"I guess that means Tetsu finally succeeded in taming you," he said with a sad smile, making Hyde blink and look at Tetsu with a clear question. Tetsu, who had been the awkward onlooker up until then, shook his head to indicate he did not know what the drummer meant by that either. Sensing their confusion, Sakura explained.
"It was always obvious Tetsu would be the one to make you change. I just refused to admit that. Ken even tried to make a bet between us on when that would happen, you know," the drummer tried to fake amusement, but did not really succeed.
"That insensitive..." Tetsu started, looking angry at what he heard but the drummer cut him off.
"It was his own way of trying to warn me about how unrealistic my expectations were, you know," he said to calm the leader down and then finally turned to look at Hyde for the first time. "There was nobody putting a gun to my head and forcing me to do what I did. My own weakness is not your fault."
"I still pushed you towards it," the singer protested and Sakura just shrugged. Hyde finally rose from his position on the floor and carefully reached to embrace the younger man, obviously half expecting to be pushed away and surprised when that didn't happen. "I will always be there for you, you know. Whatever you need - help, a listening ear or a caring friend. I promise."
Later that day, after a more than he expected successful meeting that he'd granted permission for after Hyde had bugged him about it for a whole day before, he spent twelve minutes in the studio worrying that the singer had forgotten Tetsu had organized a band meeting despite the bassist's having reminded him about it whilst they were leaving the prison. His worries eventually turned out to be unfounded when the vocalist did turn up, if uncharacteristically late. Hyde had also, it seemed, forgotten he was no longer in Hawaii as he turned up in his swimming shorts.
The leader spent three seconds counting the annoyed ticks in his eye and containing and exasperated sigh. The meeting was supposed to serve as a chance to acquaintance Yukihiro with the people in L'Arc~en~Ciel, and Hyde was not giving a good first impression. But then he decided it was just as well. It was better that the hopefully future-drummer of Laruku got the idea of just how crazy the people he was about to join really were from the start.
He also had to admit that the dumbfounded expression on the skinny man's face as he caught sight of Hyde's attire was amusing. Only a little, of course.
Ken found the whole thing absolutely hilarious.
"And this, Yukihiro-san, is our elusive singer," the tall man introduced exaggeratedly, taking advantage of the fact that he'd already met with the drummer a couple times before and was now feeling qualified to explain stuff to the newcomer. "He's going through some grand "finding himself anew" phase, which, as we can see, for some reason give him some ludicrous ideas like wearing tight shorts."
"They're just simple swimming wear," Hyde protested, glaring at the guitarist.
"That correction does not really help your case, Hyde," Tetsu pointed out helpfully and was rewarded with a glare himself.
Whatever the reason was for the singer's decision to wear what he did to the practice fortunately did not interfere with his singing ability. Thus, when the meeting finally progressed enough for them to take up their instruments and try to play a few songs, it went as well as it could be hoped and they eventually left for home that night filled with hope.
Hope for what?
"A new start," Hyde murmured as the two of them were heading for their cars together, "A genuine new start. I sure as hell am going to take advantage of that. Wanna go to my apartment tonight, for a change?"
Tetsu startled at the apparent non sequitur, but then realized they'd come to their destination and it was last chance for the singer to suggest a different destination.
"Why?" He asked, not really minding the idea to change the routine of their last few days, but still curious about the reason.
"There's only one bedroom in my place," came the cheeky reply before the singer disappeared into his car and left the bassist no choice but to follow.
There was indeed only one bedroom, and only one, not really large bed. Tetsu had half a mind to back out, but that was not before he was already in bed, with Hyde at his side, hanging onto him as tightly as he'd always done the last few days whenever Tetsu let him in close enough. It was an embrace full of insecurity and a need for reassurance. It was also something so completely different from what Tetsu was used to call Hyde-like before, that the protest died on his lips while his arms tightened their own hold around he small figure while he settles in more comfortably.
"You're not going to ask today?" He inquired half-jokingly after a few moments passed as he figured the older man just forgot to do what had almost become a tradition between them the last few days.
"I figured I'll just wait until you want to," answered the other in a mumble against his chest.
"I have wanted it for a very long time," Tetsu said with a chuckle. That was hardly the problem.
Not knowing how to take that answer, Hyde's head resurfaced from where it was previously half-buried beneath the covers and he stared up at the bassist.
"Then why?.." He asked simply. There was no need to finish that sentence.
"I guess I'm afraid you don't really want the same thing that I do," the bassist explained, smiling kindly, while the singer rose up from his lying position even more.
"If it's about the way I word it," he said, gazing imploringly straight into Tetsu's eyes, "Then it doesn't matter. The words I use, they don't matter. Just like it doesn't matter if I tell you that I love you, that I adore you or that I want to spend the rest of my life with you and noone else. I mean it just the same."
The tiny man spoke urgently, as if willing the bassist to understand and with every phrase that left the vocalist's mouth and flew right into Tetsu's heart, the leader's resolve weakened until it finally melted down completely.
"It's not the wording that is the problem," He disagreed, brushing a stray strand of Hyde's hair behind his ear. "But in the end it doesn't matter, because you just convinced me all the same."
The singer's eyes still looked at him without understanding, but that was before they closed when Tetsu's lips descended on his in a gentle kiss and the reasons ceased to be important altogether.
It was so alike their first time, and yet so entirely different. The touches and the sensations that had then been blended into one breathtaking haze of pleasure now each stood out, each had its own significance. Where once every meeting of eyes was used to convey lies and deception, now they channeled only love and trust. Where once existed nurtured skill and confidence, now it was replaced by exploration and... shivers?
"You're trembling, Hyde," Tetsu stated out loud, stopping their mutual caresses and pleasuring for a moment to questioningly look down to the face of the man over whom he was now lying.
"I'm excited," Hyde smiled, "And nervous," he admitted after another second. "I've never..." the older man suddenly actually blushed and looked to the side. "It's actually my first time this way," he confessed.
At first Tetsu frowned, not getting what the other meant and then his eyes widened in sudden understanding.
"I don't really mind..." he started but Hyde started shaking his head before he could finish.
"I mind," he stressed, "It might seem silly, but it means a lot to me. That it's happening now, that it's happening with you. I want this, Tetsu. This way. I love you."
The bassist didn't even try to hide the dampness at the corners of his eyes when the words touched him as deeply as Hyde obviously meant them. It was only fair to let Hyde know it meant a lot to him as well.
"I'll be gentle," he promised, "Don't worry, I'll take care of everything."
Hyde raised his head just enough to brush the tips of their noses together.
"I know. Maybe that's why I love you."
They both smiled, but that was before the expression was ruined by another meeting of lips.
Hyde | Tetsu
Who cares about the score anyway?
Hyde grinned, crumpling the piece of paper that had faded a little from age since he'd scribbled the first numbers on it and threw it into the rubbish bin. He'd die from embarrassment if anyone saw those two little hearts.
They were far too small to show the love that existed in reality, after all.
THE END.
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Note:
So yeah, this is the end of "The Game". I really want to thank everybody who supported me through it - you guys are beyond awesome! I really can't express my gratitude well enough *hugs to all* ♥ ♥ ♥
Now, there are lots of stuff in this story that I purposefully left unsaid and left for the reader to figure out themselves. I hope everyone did that without any problems :) If you want to ask about something though - please feel free, I'll be happy to answer :)
One more thing: I know I promised a new project to follow this, but pretty much in the last moment I decided to go on a hiatus for a month. I'm sure some of you can figure out the reason :D I might still post something if that's how my inspiration winds will blow, and there will be a new project after November. But it's still a temporary goodbye for now :)
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Date: 2010-10-30 08:55 pm (UTC)The swim shorts thing is actually true :D Yukki mentioned it in some interview, if I'm not mistaken :D What that man was thinking at the time, we'll never understand...
I find it quite funny, because there was so much talk about sex in this fic, and yet it had the least smut from my Laruku fics :D
I'm glad you liked it. Thank you so much for commenting all the time *huuugs*
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Date: 2010-10-30 10:18 pm (UTC)LOL seriously? Oh Hyde...
Haha that's true. Maybe you can write a smutty side story someday
You're welcome *hugs back*
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Date: 2010-10-31 07:14 am (UTC)Yuki mentioned them just as "extremely tight shorts" and Hyde went: "I don't really remember. Maybe those were swimming shorts?" and it turned out they were.
That man is just too weird :DDD
Nah, no side stories and no sequels. That' something I promised to myself with this story :)
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Date: 2010-11-01 02:26 pm (UTC)Ah okay, maybe some other story with have TetsuxHyde smut