The Game, Chapter 5
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radhajTitle: The Game
Pairings: Tetsu x Hyde x Tetsu
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I do not claim to have any j-rockers in my possession
Warnings: Male x Male stuff. Slight OOC and AU, because this is just not how it really was. But hey, that's why this is fan fiction, right?
Summary: When Tetsu approaches Hyde to join his band, the vocalist turns out to be everything he's been made out to be and more. But is that more than the new band leader can handle?
Note: I know I'm really late with this one. I'm so sorry, please forgive me? :3
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Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Things changed.
They couldn't possibly stay the same after what has been done, said and revealed in that conversation between Tetsu and Hyde that lasted no more than a few minutes, but ended up having such a deep impact. The only problem: Hyde was not sure in which way things should change. And more importantly - how he wanted them to change. Especially when life continued dealing him with surprises.
Ken came over to his apartment the next day and, though the singer expected the guitarist to chew him out now that there was no need for pretense between the two of them, the older man just smiled and told him he was there so they could go and hang out, just as he had promised yesterday. Hyde was so taken aback that he did not even think before agreeing to hit the clubs.
The tall man continued to act as if nothing happened, even though there was a mutual understanding that both of their cards were in the open by now. It just made Hyde more confused when he realized he didn't know if he should take offense at the fact that Ken apparently viewed the whole thing with amusement instead of the seriousness that Hyde himself took it with, or just be relieved. The thought that maybe Ken was a real friend struck him one night, and the idea was so alien to him that he simply didn't know how to deal with it.
Tetsu was on a whole another level of confusing to the singer. No matter what, Hyde was still sure he didn't want to forgive the bassist and that he did not want to stop making Tetsu deal with the problems he caused. But on the few occasions he saw the younger man, Tetsu did not, in any way, continue attacking Hyde's ways or views. In fact, the bassist was... encouraging. Forgiving. As if he was giving Hyde all the time in the world to consider his options. And so that was what he did.
Though he admitted to himself that maybe he could, after all, be more serious about singing (singing in Laruku even) than he ever thought he'd be able to be about any occupation, he was still, more than ever actually, stubborn to not let Tetsu come out of this as the one who was right in the end. A part of him was so fixated on making Tetsu pay, so used to being fixed on that, even if he no longer knew why that was so. He just wanted Tetsu to look at him again with those angry eyes. Whenever that happened, it felt almost empowering to him.
That was one of the reasons why he didn't change his ways of "socializing" even after that way of life took yet another low blow from the bassist. Another reason was that he felt that by giving up he would be undermining what he managed to achieve in it up until now. He knew that it would simply be too hard for him to change, because it was just what he was. And the biggest reason of all was: he did not want to give it up. And he could allow himself not to.
However, when it came to the way he planned on interacting with his bandmates and especially the new member that Tetsu promised them he'd find...
"The name is Sakura," Tetsu said at an impromptu band meeting one day, at a diner somewhere in the midway between the three of the Laruku members' apartments, "He lives in Tokyo, so we're going there as well," the words were simple and allowed no disagreements so obviously Hyde had to speak up.
"Just like that? Didn't think to speak with us before making that decision?" Hyde tried to bite with his words, but Tetsu looked at him with the most dismissive look the singer had ever experienced.
"It was always obvious we'd have to move there sooner or later, I see nothing for you to be surprised about here," he said, throwing a look Ken's way just to see if he agreed and the guitarist shrugged in response. "Besides, I would have thought you would be thrilled about the change of scenery. As far as I've seen, you pretty much sucked the clubs in Osaka dry by now."
That was the most double-meaning comment that Hyde had heard from Tetsu in a long time, not to mention the first time his habits were mentioned so openly in front of Ken, even if the oldest of them didn't act like he noticed that at all. The words were true enough though, and Hyde had no other complaints about their sudden change of base.
Thus when it came to his plans for the new member that Tetsu indeed had found them.. He guessed he should stay away.
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Sakura turned out to be a very different person from everyone that had been a Laruku member before - that Hyde realized the second he saw the drummer. Dark to the point of making everyone stop and stare, silent to the point of making everyone stop and listen, he was a person Hyde knew he would be all over the second he saw him if they met at a club, in different circumstances. They were what they were, however, and Hyde found himself greeting the extremely well-built man in a far less flirtatious manner.
"Glad to met you," he said with a smile as neutral as he could muster. He was so unused to being not in the act, that this felt far less natural to him by now, "I hope you'll like it with us."
The drummer just nodded in response, but Hyde knew he wasn't trying to be rude by it. It was just the way this Sakura clicked and despite himself, Hyde immediately felt even more drawn to him.
Even Ken barely managed to get a smile and a word from the serious drummer, but it was only halfway through the meeting that Hyde realized it wasn't just because Sakura was being cool. He was, in spite of appearances, actually quite shy. He managed to stay humble even after he bashed the hell out of his drums and proved it was not by chance that their ever planning-forward and serious-business leader recruited him.
"You're wonderful," Hyde said from his perch on a chair when the demonstration/jamming session was over and the awe in his voice was not faked at all, "I used to play drums, but hearing people like you makes me remember just why exactly I realized it was impossible for me to be anything but a relatively mediocre drummer."
He was so fascinated by what he just heard that even talking about one more of his past failures did not ruin his mood.
"I'm sure you're being too hard on yourself." It was the longest sentence the drummer uttered that night and was followed by his second smile and the singer found himself smiling in return as well as fighting off a completely unacceptable blush.
Trying to break the atmosphere that he had not planned on creating, Hyde threw a glance Tetsu's way to see how the bassist was taking the conversation, but found that the leader was giving him a glance of his own. There was no way to misinterpret it either - Tetsu was breaking his impromptu one-sided truce to tell Hyde 'Touch him, go near him at all and I'll...'
What exactly Tetsu was threatening him with, the singer didn't know and, unfortunately knew he'll likely never find out - as tempting as it was to go against Tetsu's wishes again, he had made the decision not to trample with his band members anymore himself: it was not a clever thing to do if he was to get serious about singing after all.
But as was the norm by now, Hyde chose to blame Tetsu for this unlikable for him situation. It was easy to start looking for someone to blame when his level of frustration started rising so rapidly soon after moving to Tokyo. While, as always, Tetsu kept his word and Hyde was free to do as he liked, the singer found himself with less and less time for it when their popularity started rising and their responsibilities and work mounted. He also found it harder to keep his anonymity in clubs.
It was even harder still to keep from getting frustrated with a person as intriguing as Sakura always being near him, but off-limits.
And he didn't let the fact that he started bonding with his bandmates in a far less obscene and far deeper level because of all this lessen his unreasonable anger towards the bassist at all.
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"Can I ask you something?" Sakura started one night when they were hanging out in the drummer's apartment, now a year into their acquaintance and Sakura's membership in L'Arc~en~Ciel. They've unexpectedly grown to know each other very well by now. Probably better than Hyde knew anyone else, including Ken and Tetsu.
For example, he knew that the drummer would never let a free night such as this go by without at least smoking some weed (because the dark man knew Hyde refused to let him even touch any harder drugs in his presence), but would not nag at the singer for not joining him (because Sakura knew Hyde disliked smoking it the few times he did try). He also knew that Sakura probably only wanted to ask his question because he was relaxed enough to dare do it.
"Of course," he said, relaxed himself just because of how relaxed his companion was. He knew that even high, the drummer still was too polite to inquire anything without Hyde first agreeing to it. The drummer was just shy that way, and that somehow drew gentleness from the singer that Hyde did not even know existed in him.
"You and Tetsu," the drummer started, ignorant of how the relaxation instantly left Hyde at hearing the words, "just what exactly is going on between the two of you?"
"What do you mean?" the singer asked, trying not to let Sakura notice how flustered he suddenly felt - not a hard task, to be truthful, in the state the drummer was.
Hyde might have reluctantly admitted (only to himself, mind) that Sakura was a friend, but he didn't want to ruin the younger man's unexpected innocence by exposing him to the particulars of his and Tetsu's relationship. The drummer might suspect a thing or two about the singers frequent disappearances after the band's outings to clubs, but he didn't need to know the whole truth.
"Well, there's obviously something going on," the drummer drawled, floatily, "the two of you are always, like, checking up on each other. Watching how the other reacts. Like you really... I don't know. You seem in your own world, sometimes. It might be none of my business, but if the two of you, well, you know... I just wanted you to know I'm okay with it. There's no need to hide it or anything..."
Hyde decided to blame his sleepiness for not realizing what the drummer was trying to say earlier than this. He had been so scared hat the drummer might be onto his real self, that Sakura's real question seemed almost... cute to him. He restrained from sighing in relief.
"Oh, no, we really aren't together or anything like that," he hurried to deny, saving the drummer from further jumbling with his words. The denial left his mouth far more forcefully than he expected it to, but he was distracted from that when he saw how entirely his answer changed the drummer's demeanor.
"Really?" he asked again, suddenly far less awkward and... was that hopefulness in his voice? Hyde blinked at the notion. "Because you two always seem to..."
"Really, there's nothing like that between us," Hyde interrupted, almost reassuringly. Hearing that, however, Sakura seemed to withdraw again and started stumbling with words once more.
"Then would you... I mean... I'd... Would you be with me? If you're not with him?"
Despite how obviously the conversation had led to this point, Hyde's heart almost jumped out his throat when he heard this. He had tried to avoid this so much, but had his deeper desires made him open his trap without even him meaning to after all?
No, it can't be, he had been so careful... He hadn't even played with the drummer like he had, years ago, played with Hiro.
"I don't usually go for guys, or anything," Sakura continued talking during the singer's stunned silence, "But I just... I don't know, I like you a lot and..."
"I'm flattered, Sakura. I really am. But this is a bad idea," Hyde said as soon as he recovered enough, but couldn't actually believe he was saying this. Since when did he refuse a proposal like this?
"But I know you go for guys, so you can't say you..." the younger man tried again, but the older cut him off once more.
"That's not the problem, Sakura. It's simply a bad idea."
"Don't you want to... sleep with me?" The drummer persisted and Hyde was so startled by the blunt words coming from the man's mouth that he gave up denying immediately.
"Well... yeah," he said, numbly. Even Tetsu wouldn't blame him for not lying, right?
"So do it," Sakura almost challenged him, leaning in forward. And Hyde gave up protesting immediately as well.
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Sakura was the first person that Hyde slept with more than once.
Well, there was a girlfriend in high-school as well as the first guy he'd ever slept with that were technically the real firsts in that aspect, but both of them were before Hyde - Hideto - was actually Hyde. Before it became so unusual.
It was actually very easy for Hyde to rationalize the relationship too. Sakura was always there and Hyde actually liked him, not just used him for proving his own worth to himself. He treated the younger man as a friend and let the drummer wake his gentle side. And when practices piled up upon lives and free time became an expensive luxury instead of a normality, it was... convenient to let it continue.
The transition was completely seamless as well. They got along well before, and they continued to get along after. That was why, probably, even Tetsu didn't realize what was going on until weeks had passed after that first time.
Hyde never actually figured out what was it that had finally given them away. But when one day Tetsu asked him to stay after practice with a steely look on his face, he did as told without any doubt in his mind that Tetsu knew.
However, it didn't mean he was scared. It was a while since their last real confrontation and Hyde felt a curious excitement in the face of it, especially when it was clearly meant to end with him as the winner.
"I thought you realized by now that this is not a game," the bassist started quietly when the door closed behind the last staff member and they were left alone. "I noticed your trysts in clubs became more rare, I saw you giving your all in practices, your best in lives. But of course you've always enjoyed proving me wrong."
Hyde didn't say anything, because it was obvious Tetsu was not yet finished.
"I said this before, when Hiro left I think. I repeat it with the hope that you changed at least a little bit and will actually hear what I'm saying this time," Tetsu whispered, before looking up, straight into the singer's eyes, "A friend, Hyde. Does it still mean nothing to you?"
"He is a friend," Hyde agreed, but his tone seemed to anger Tetsu even more.
"It's Sakura, Hyde. Despite his stupid drugs, and stupid antics on stage, and his stupid cool-guy image he's... he's really a lot like Hiro. How can you do this to... someone that naive?"
"I'm not doing anything to him. He wanted this himself," Hyde replied, still not taking even a step back in the argument and Tetsu angrily shook his head.
"Of course he wanted it himself. You make everyone want it themselves, that's the whole problem!" The leader's eyes were blazing with so many different emotions, Hyde could not keep track of them. "You'll leave him broken, like you leave everyone. It's a miracle he's even stayed this long."
"Well, perhaps I want to stay with him," Hyde said suddenly, surprising them both, but keeping his own surprise hidden. He did not know if he really meant it or just said it to make Tetsu shut up at first, but as seconds passed, he actually started convincing himself as well. "Do you remember what you said after we had sex, that "threat" that you made?" the singer continued, "Maybe you were right and I did find someone to love, and it's Sakura," inwardly Hyde congratulated himself on finding a way to twist Tetsu's own words in a way that served him so well instead. And it indeed, seemed to have stunned Tetsu into silence. But not for very long.
"That's great then," Tetsu said eventually, almost indifferently. And it hurt. Hyde didn't know why, but maybe it was because, for some unexplainable reason, he had expected for Tetsu to be the hurt one in this. He shook the thought off. It was silly. It did not make him any less of a victor.
"If that is really the case, then I'm happy for you and I wish you luck," the leader continued in the same tone of voice. "However, Hyde, it is Sakura we're talking about. Be aware of that. Please don't break him."
Tetsu seemed almost sad when he said that and left not long after, leaving Hyde still a little confused.
Of course he had no intention of breaking Sakura. He liked him. It was convenient. They knew each other so well. It would make no sense for Hyde to do anything to compromise that.
Shrugging to himself in slight incomprehension, Hyde prepared to leave as well.
They all had the rest of the evening off. He might as well take the opportunity and hit the club - it's been a while since he had an opportunity to go and find anyone for himself.
Hyde | Tetsu
3 | 2
Chapter 6
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Pairings: Tetsu x Hyde x Tetsu
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I do not claim to have any j-rockers in my possession
Warnings: Male x Male stuff. Slight OOC and AU, because this is just not how it really was. But hey, that's why this is fan fiction, right?
Summary: When Tetsu approaches Hyde to join his band, the vocalist turns out to be everything he's been made out to be and more. But is that more than the new band leader can handle?
Note: I know I'm really late with this one. I'm so sorry, please forgive me? :3
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Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Things changed.
They couldn't possibly stay the same after what has been done, said and revealed in that conversation between Tetsu and Hyde that lasted no more than a few minutes, but ended up having such a deep impact. The only problem: Hyde was not sure in which way things should change. And more importantly - how he wanted them to change. Especially when life continued dealing him with surprises.
Ken came over to his apartment the next day and, though the singer expected the guitarist to chew him out now that there was no need for pretense between the two of them, the older man just smiled and told him he was there so they could go and hang out, just as he had promised yesterday. Hyde was so taken aback that he did not even think before agreeing to hit the clubs.
The tall man continued to act as if nothing happened, even though there was a mutual understanding that both of their cards were in the open by now. It just made Hyde more confused when he realized he didn't know if he should take offense at the fact that Ken apparently viewed the whole thing with amusement instead of the seriousness that Hyde himself took it with, or just be relieved. The thought that maybe Ken was a real friend struck him one night, and the idea was so alien to him that he simply didn't know how to deal with it.
Tetsu was on a whole another level of confusing to the singer. No matter what, Hyde was still sure he didn't want to forgive the bassist and that he did not want to stop making Tetsu deal with the problems he caused. But on the few occasions he saw the younger man, Tetsu did not, in any way, continue attacking Hyde's ways or views. In fact, the bassist was... encouraging. Forgiving. As if he was giving Hyde all the time in the world to consider his options. And so that was what he did.
Though he admitted to himself that maybe he could, after all, be more serious about singing (singing in Laruku even) than he ever thought he'd be able to be about any occupation, he was still, more than ever actually, stubborn to not let Tetsu come out of this as the one who was right in the end. A part of him was so fixated on making Tetsu pay, so used to being fixed on that, even if he no longer knew why that was so. He just wanted Tetsu to look at him again with those angry eyes. Whenever that happened, it felt almost empowering to him.
That was one of the reasons why he didn't change his ways of "socializing" even after that way of life took yet another low blow from the bassist. Another reason was that he felt that by giving up he would be undermining what he managed to achieve in it up until now. He knew that it would simply be too hard for him to change, because it was just what he was. And the biggest reason of all was: he did not want to give it up. And he could allow himself not to.
However, when it came to the way he planned on interacting with his bandmates and especially the new member that Tetsu promised them he'd find...
"The name is Sakura," Tetsu said at an impromptu band meeting one day, at a diner somewhere in the midway between the three of the Laruku members' apartments, "He lives in Tokyo, so we're going there as well," the words were simple and allowed no disagreements so obviously Hyde had to speak up.
"Just like that? Didn't think to speak with us before making that decision?" Hyde tried to bite with his words, but Tetsu looked at him with the most dismissive look the singer had ever experienced.
"It was always obvious we'd have to move there sooner or later, I see nothing for you to be surprised about here," he said, throwing a look Ken's way just to see if he agreed and the guitarist shrugged in response. "Besides, I would have thought you would be thrilled about the change of scenery. As far as I've seen, you pretty much sucked the clubs in Osaka dry by now."
That was the most double-meaning comment that Hyde had heard from Tetsu in a long time, not to mention the first time his habits were mentioned so openly in front of Ken, even if the oldest of them didn't act like he noticed that at all. The words were true enough though, and Hyde had no other complaints about their sudden change of base.
Thus when it came to his plans for the new member that Tetsu indeed had found them.. He guessed he should stay away.
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Sakura turned out to be a very different person from everyone that had been a Laruku member before - that Hyde realized the second he saw the drummer. Dark to the point of making everyone stop and stare, silent to the point of making everyone stop and listen, he was a person Hyde knew he would be all over the second he saw him if they met at a club, in different circumstances. They were what they were, however, and Hyde found himself greeting the extremely well-built man in a far less flirtatious manner.
"Glad to met you," he said with a smile as neutral as he could muster. He was so unused to being not in the act, that this felt far less natural to him by now, "I hope you'll like it with us."
The drummer just nodded in response, but Hyde knew he wasn't trying to be rude by it. It was just the way this Sakura clicked and despite himself, Hyde immediately felt even more drawn to him.
Even Ken barely managed to get a smile and a word from the serious drummer, but it was only halfway through the meeting that Hyde realized it wasn't just because Sakura was being cool. He was, in spite of appearances, actually quite shy. He managed to stay humble even after he bashed the hell out of his drums and proved it was not by chance that their ever planning-forward and serious-business leader recruited him.
"You're wonderful," Hyde said from his perch on a chair when the demonstration/jamming session was over and the awe in his voice was not faked at all, "I used to play drums, but hearing people like you makes me remember just why exactly I realized it was impossible for me to be anything but a relatively mediocre drummer."
He was so fascinated by what he just heard that even talking about one more of his past failures did not ruin his mood.
"I'm sure you're being too hard on yourself." It was the longest sentence the drummer uttered that night and was followed by his second smile and the singer found himself smiling in return as well as fighting off a completely unacceptable blush.
Trying to break the atmosphere that he had not planned on creating, Hyde threw a glance Tetsu's way to see how the bassist was taking the conversation, but found that the leader was giving him a glance of his own. There was no way to misinterpret it either - Tetsu was breaking his impromptu one-sided truce to tell Hyde 'Touch him, go near him at all and I'll...'
What exactly Tetsu was threatening him with, the singer didn't know and, unfortunately knew he'll likely never find out - as tempting as it was to go against Tetsu's wishes again, he had made the decision not to trample with his band members anymore himself: it was not a clever thing to do if he was to get serious about singing after all.
But as was the norm by now, Hyde chose to blame Tetsu for this unlikable for him situation. It was easy to start looking for someone to blame when his level of frustration started rising so rapidly soon after moving to Tokyo. While, as always, Tetsu kept his word and Hyde was free to do as he liked, the singer found himself with less and less time for it when their popularity started rising and their responsibilities and work mounted. He also found it harder to keep his anonymity in clubs.
It was even harder still to keep from getting frustrated with a person as intriguing as Sakura always being near him, but off-limits.
And he didn't let the fact that he started bonding with his bandmates in a far less obscene and far deeper level because of all this lessen his unreasonable anger towards the bassist at all.
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"Can I ask you something?" Sakura started one night when they were hanging out in the drummer's apartment, now a year into their acquaintance and Sakura's membership in L'Arc~en~Ciel. They've unexpectedly grown to know each other very well by now. Probably better than Hyde knew anyone else, including Ken and Tetsu.
For example, he knew that the drummer would never let a free night such as this go by without at least smoking some weed (because the dark man knew Hyde refused to let him even touch any harder drugs in his presence), but would not nag at the singer for not joining him (because Sakura knew Hyde disliked smoking it the few times he did try). He also knew that Sakura probably only wanted to ask his question because he was relaxed enough to dare do it.
"Of course," he said, relaxed himself just because of how relaxed his companion was. He knew that even high, the drummer still was too polite to inquire anything without Hyde first agreeing to it. The drummer was just shy that way, and that somehow drew gentleness from the singer that Hyde did not even know existed in him.
"You and Tetsu," the drummer started, ignorant of how the relaxation instantly left Hyde at hearing the words, "just what exactly is going on between the two of you?"
"What do you mean?" the singer asked, trying not to let Sakura notice how flustered he suddenly felt - not a hard task, to be truthful, in the state the drummer was.
Hyde might have reluctantly admitted (only to himself, mind) that Sakura was a friend, but he didn't want to ruin the younger man's unexpected innocence by exposing him to the particulars of his and Tetsu's relationship. The drummer might suspect a thing or two about the singers frequent disappearances after the band's outings to clubs, but he didn't need to know the whole truth.
"Well, there's obviously something going on," the drummer drawled, floatily, "the two of you are always, like, checking up on each other. Watching how the other reacts. Like you really... I don't know. You seem in your own world, sometimes. It might be none of my business, but if the two of you, well, you know... I just wanted you to know I'm okay with it. There's no need to hide it or anything..."
Hyde decided to blame his sleepiness for not realizing what the drummer was trying to say earlier than this. He had been so scared hat the drummer might be onto his real self, that Sakura's real question seemed almost... cute to him. He restrained from sighing in relief.
"Oh, no, we really aren't together or anything like that," he hurried to deny, saving the drummer from further jumbling with his words. The denial left his mouth far more forcefully than he expected it to, but he was distracted from that when he saw how entirely his answer changed the drummer's demeanor.
"Really?" he asked again, suddenly far less awkward and... was that hopefulness in his voice? Hyde blinked at the notion. "Because you two always seem to..."
"Really, there's nothing like that between us," Hyde interrupted, almost reassuringly. Hearing that, however, Sakura seemed to withdraw again and started stumbling with words once more.
"Then would you... I mean... I'd... Would you be with me? If you're not with him?"
Despite how obviously the conversation had led to this point, Hyde's heart almost jumped out his throat when he heard this. He had tried to avoid this so much, but had his deeper desires made him open his trap without even him meaning to after all?
No, it can't be, he had been so careful... He hadn't even played with the drummer like he had, years ago, played with Hiro.
"I don't usually go for guys, or anything," Sakura continued talking during the singer's stunned silence, "But I just... I don't know, I like you a lot and..."
"I'm flattered, Sakura. I really am. But this is a bad idea," Hyde said as soon as he recovered enough, but couldn't actually believe he was saying this. Since when did he refuse a proposal like this?
"But I know you go for guys, so you can't say you..." the younger man tried again, but the older cut him off once more.
"That's not the problem, Sakura. It's simply a bad idea."
"Don't you want to... sleep with me?" The drummer persisted and Hyde was so startled by the blunt words coming from the man's mouth that he gave up denying immediately.
"Well... yeah," he said, numbly. Even Tetsu wouldn't blame him for not lying, right?
"So do it," Sakura almost challenged him, leaning in forward. And Hyde gave up protesting immediately as well.
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Sakura was the first person that Hyde slept with more than once.
Well, there was a girlfriend in high-school as well as the first guy he'd ever slept with that were technically the real firsts in that aspect, but both of them were before Hyde - Hideto - was actually Hyde. Before it became so unusual.
It was actually very easy for Hyde to rationalize the relationship too. Sakura was always there and Hyde actually liked him, not just used him for proving his own worth to himself. He treated the younger man as a friend and let the drummer wake his gentle side. And when practices piled up upon lives and free time became an expensive luxury instead of a normality, it was... convenient to let it continue.
The transition was completely seamless as well. They got along well before, and they continued to get along after. That was why, probably, even Tetsu didn't realize what was going on until weeks had passed after that first time.
Hyde never actually figured out what was it that had finally given them away. But when one day Tetsu asked him to stay after practice with a steely look on his face, he did as told without any doubt in his mind that Tetsu knew.
However, it didn't mean he was scared. It was a while since their last real confrontation and Hyde felt a curious excitement in the face of it, especially when it was clearly meant to end with him as the winner.
"I thought you realized by now that this is not a game," the bassist started quietly when the door closed behind the last staff member and they were left alone. "I noticed your trysts in clubs became more rare, I saw you giving your all in practices, your best in lives. But of course you've always enjoyed proving me wrong."
Hyde didn't say anything, because it was obvious Tetsu was not yet finished.
"I said this before, when Hiro left I think. I repeat it with the hope that you changed at least a little bit and will actually hear what I'm saying this time," Tetsu whispered, before looking up, straight into the singer's eyes, "A friend, Hyde. Does it still mean nothing to you?"
"He is a friend," Hyde agreed, but his tone seemed to anger Tetsu even more.
"It's Sakura, Hyde. Despite his stupid drugs, and stupid antics on stage, and his stupid cool-guy image he's... he's really a lot like Hiro. How can you do this to... someone that naive?"
"I'm not doing anything to him. He wanted this himself," Hyde replied, still not taking even a step back in the argument and Tetsu angrily shook his head.
"Of course he wanted it himself. You make everyone want it themselves, that's the whole problem!" The leader's eyes were blazing with so many different emotions, Hyde could not keep track of them. "You'll leave him broken, like you leave everyone. It's a miracle he's even stayed this long."
"Well, perhaps I want to stay with him," Hyde said suddenly, surprising them both, but keeping his own surprise hidden. He did not know if he really meant it or just said it to make Tetsu shut up at first, but as seconds passed, he actually started convincing himself as well. "Do you remember what you said after we had sex, that "threat" that you made?" the singer continued, "Maybe you were right and I did find someone to love, and it's Sakura," inwardly Hyde congratulated himself on finding a way to twist Tetsu's own words in a way that served him so well instead. And it indeed, seemed to have stunned Tetsu into silence. But not for very long.
"That's great then," Tetsu said eventually, almost indifferently. And it hurt. Hyde didn't know why, but maybe it was because, for some unexplainable reason, he had expected for Tetsu to be the hurt one in this. He shook the thought off. It was silly. It did not make him any less of a victor.
"If that is really the case, then I'm happy for you and I wish you luck," the leader continued in the same tone of voice. "However, Hyde, it is Sakura we're talking about. Be aware of that. Please don't break him."
Tetsu seemed almost sad when he said that and left not long after, leaving Hyde still a little confused.
Of course he had no intention of breaking Sakura. He liked him. It was convenient. They knew each other so well. It would make no sense for Hyde to do anything to compromise that.
Shrugging to himself in slight incomprehension, Hyde prepared to leave as well.
They all had the rest of the evening off. He might as well take the opportunity and hit the club - it's been a while since he had an opportunity to go and find anyone for himself.
Hyde | Tetsu
3 | 2
Chapter 6
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P.S. I'm plugging it everywhere I can, so I'll do this here as well: those of you who don't yet know or have yet to join, there's a new laruku fic community on LJ
laruku_in_words of which I'm the mod. So go and join! And tell others to join! Let's make this one live, guys :DAlso, I'm not going to post any of my updates in any other comms from now on, so anyone who following me through them... just be aware of that :P
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Date: 2010-10-14 08:29 am (UTC)Thank you very much for commenting :)
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Date: 2010-10-14 09:13 pm (UTC)You're welcome!
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Date: 2010-10-14 03:09 am (UTC)I love how this story is developing, and how the character seem to be changing every chapter, Hyde's growing and becoming a more nicer person (I don't know if that makes any sense, but I mean, he's not being such a bitch anymore). And I get as frustrated as him with Tetsu's reactions, but I like them, because they prove that even if Hyde's scoring in this game of them, he's not as affected as Hyde is when Tetsu is the one that wins a round.
I don't know what to expect, I mean, we all know Sakura leaves, but how are you going to describe Hyde when that happens, how is he going to react? What will he feel and how will he get better? Will Tetsu confort him? Not many fics let me thinking so much as all of yours. You're a really good writer :D
And it's becoming a habit this of writing so much :P Hope you don't mind.
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Date: 2010-10-14 08:37 am (UTC)And you always understand everything perfectly too :) I'm itching to give you a hint for an answer to those questions, but all I can say without giving things away is: it won't be pretty in the next chapter. And Hyde is too clueless for his own good sometimes.
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Date: 2010-10-14 09:02 pm (UTC)I was so excited when I started reading this chapter that I had to start all over again after a while hahahaha ♥
This time around, I'm starting to like hyde's character. The development of his personality and actions is amazing and now I'm attached to him as well xD
The little twist in the story is intoxicating and I can't wait to read moreeeee~
I really love the way you write and I can't do anything else but congratulate you!!! :D!
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Date: 2010-10-15 03:53 am (UTC)Well, this is telling it a little bit, but don't start liking him too much yet. He still has time to screw things up :)
Thank you so much! ♥
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Date: 2010-10-14 10:37 pm (UTC)And I already know about the fic community you made...so thank you, once again, I read a lot of good fic there =D
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Date: 2010-10-15 03:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-10-15 09:57 am (UTC)...as far as I've seen, you pretty much sucked the clubs in Osaka dry by now
I nearly chocked on my drink!
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Date: 2010-10-15 12:51 pm (UTC)Be careful, dear, wouldn't want my writings to become dangerous :D
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Date: 2010-10-19 07:29 pm (UTC)but woah...I loved this chapter! ^^ It's so cute to read Hyde being flustered... And poor Tetsu... He sounds jealous...<3
I like the way you portray Sakura by the way.... up until now I've only read about him as some junkie, but you really give him a personality, and I really appreciate it...~
Now on to the next chapter! Thanks for sharing! <3
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Date: 2010-10-19 09:14 pm (UTC)Sakura is very... elusive. It's hard to judge his personality at all irl, so more than in any other members' cases is left to the imagination of the writer. I'm happy you liked how he's portrayed here :)
♥ Thanks for reading ^^