The Penance

[radhaj]

Title: The Penance
Pairings: Tetsuya x Hyde,
Rating: NC-17 really
Disclaimer: I am a proud owner of my twisted mind and ideas, this fic included. I do not own the characters though
Warnings: BDSM, bondage, roleplay, you name it. It's a heavy fic
Summary: Sometimes, Hyde goes too deep
Note: Can/should be seen as part of To Submit universe.



The Penance

The sight before him is nothing but exquisite. Hyde is heaving, bent over the unforgivingly hard table, his muscles taut, a sheen of sweat covering the pale skin from the exertion of holding the uncomfortable position. The smaller man tries to shift slightly at the opportunity the small break of his Master's blows have presented him with, tugging at the bindings of his arms that are stretched tightly and tied far over his head, and then his feet that are spread so far apart he has to stay on tip toes the whole time. He doesn't do it to try and free himself though, Tetsuya knows. He's actually reassuring himself that the ropes are still there and he has no escape, and though he keens when nothing changes despite his efforts and his body remains painfully stretched as a string, and he still can't even put his feet fully on the ground, there is relief in the sound.

“Still a bit more, pet,” the slightly taller man whispers, and throws his arm back slightly before whipping it forward again, the tails of the flogger he holds in his hand striking the smaller man's backside with a satisfyingly audible snap. Hyde moves once more then, and then again at every following hit. But instead of trying to evade the painful hits, he is trying to meet them as best as he can. Small moans leave his lips every time it happens, half from pain and half from pleasure. His cock might be hanging limp between his legs uselessly, but he is enjoying what is happening. The pleasure he feels right now has simply far surpassed mere sexual arousal by now.

Tetsuya doesn't count as he continues, he depends solely on his intuition and the state of his lover's abused skin to tell him when it is enough. And only when the flesh is burning dark red, on the verge of turning purplish does he stop. Abruptly. But he knows for certain that this is the limit, right here. Even just the tiniest bit more, and his precious pet would break.

Only the smaller man himself no longer realizes it by now. His mind has sunken too deeply and his thinking is now beyond reason, concentrated only on the disobedience that led to this in the first place and his need to repent for it. This time when he tugs at his restraints, it is from fear that they'd be soon removed. A fear that soon comes true when the taller man leans over him and starts untying the knots holding the bindings in place.

“This is it, pet,” Tetsu whispers, his intentions soothing, but he knows the words are actually the last thing Hyde wants to hear right now, “You bore your punishment well,” he praises, his first and last feeble attempt to make the petite man realize it is all okay already and prevent him from questioning it. But as the last rope is untied and falls onto the floor, Hyde is already shaking his head violently and making a truly distressed sound.

“No... Why did you stop, Master?” he asks weakly, “It's too soon, I deserved to suffer so much more...” he whispers, but Tetsuya shushes him carefully. The tiny man's body is so stiff from having been so tense for so long that the younger man has problems making his lover let go and gathering him into his arms as he lowers them both onto the floor.

“It's enough. Any more and I'll injure you, pet,” he mutters lovingly, stroking his beloved's hair and rubbing over his tense back, “You've repented enough already, I am satisfied.”

“No, no, no... please Sir... Please... I disobeyed so badly, I don't care about injuries... Don't be merciful, please... it hurts when it's not enough...”

There are sobs, dry heaves, Hyde is on the verge of hyperventilating and Tetsuya suddenly fears an actual panic attack might be coming. The smaller man struggles in his arms and the leader knows that this might also be Hyde's subconscious attempt to disobey him a bit more (he's not supposed to question his Master's decisions, ever) so that Tetsu would change his mind and continue the punishment.

But the younger man's mind is made up, and he speaks, shushes, calms and soothes the oh so dependent on him creature in his arms and fortunately his voice still has enough authority over the submissive man's mind that even in this situation he listens. The desperation ebbs away, and it soon seems like the true crisis will be averted. Sure, maybe the bassist shouldn't even have let it come to this point... he could have guessed it was coming, there had been something in Hyde's voice as he acquiesced his Master's order and in the gleam of his downcast eyes when he crawled away to bring the items for his own punishment... But Tetsu knows that even this is something that the older man has to go through every once in a while to feel fulfilled.

When the tears finally come, Tetsuya breathes out in relief. Hyde's body loses some of its tension in his arms and the singer is sobbing now. He managed to let it go. The leader smiles. The healing will start now.

Comments

[rakun.livejournal.com]

uhm yeah I like it >_>

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Hehehe, another one drawn into the dark-side of enjoying this XDD

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

You don't sound too sure... XDD

[sekiryu.livejournal.com]

Hurray for beautifully written BDSM ♥

I'm just gonna go and read more of your stuff ^^

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much :) and go ahead and enjoy, hopefully >)

[sekiryu.livejournal.com]

Oh...Hyde gets punished here ♥

But you know, there are those kinds of submissive...I mean the one Hyde's portraying here...and sometimes there are a dominant that goes over the rules of not going over the limit...I shudder to think what would happen to those subs if they got involved with a dom like that DX

Oh well...Tetchan knows how to make it better, even IF Hyde goes waaay too deep >.< Shows how important it is to know the rules before getting oneself involved in such scenes...

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

YES. So much. Hyde truly went too deep here, like, he would have begged for more again and again, not noticing that his body truly was unable to take it anymore. So it is important for the dom to get that, and that's why tetsu is perfect for hyde here. Well, obviously he would be as they are all products of my imagination, but you know what I mean.

Even if the dom is usually likely to go over the limits, they should still know that at situations like this there are limits that shouldn't be crossed... So I can only hope they do /blabbing

[skyressfly.livejournal.com]

I like how tetsu cares so much for hyde here~ <3

If you have time, it would be if there was a fic on the 'healing' part as well. =o

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

Yes, he does care for Hyde incredibly :)

I dunno, really, this was supposed to be a one-shot thingy... I don't think I'll be writing a direct sequel to this any time soon at least.

[nasakeee.livejournal.com]

When you mentioned this - hyde going too deep on his role - on Submit, I felt really curious so I'm glad you wrote this!

And... wow. Amazing. You mentioned on the 4th part of that Extra how only tetsu would be able to make hyde go this deep and I like to think that also only tetsu would be able to calm him like this too. They are perfect for each other :)

*pats hyde's head*

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

This fic was truly an outcome of writing the 4th part. I mentioned that, and somehow started wondering about it myself, and how would it feel, and how would tetsu would deal with it (I say only tetsu, because hyde is not in a state to deal with it himself at that point at all and is fully dependant on tetsu). So of course I had to try to write it. Honestly, I think this part of the relationship might be something that fascinates me the most, because they truly have to be completely in synch for this not to end up quite badly...

tldr: thank you for reading and appreciating the idea of this so fully just as I intended it to be :)

[paddyabroad.livejournal.com]

I have not read ff in a while, I never read Laruku and I randomly came here via comms and LJ searches. That said, you have created a most sweet BDSM verse between this and the three Submit chapters I kind of deavored. I like the balance between the normal them and the in-scene relationship and the idea that the master knows his slave's boundaries much better than the slave in question. The fact of actually not giving permission to come to keep it from being just a pro forma question was very well done, too.

I might be snooping around some more to see what other nice fics I find around here, thanks for sharing.

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

Aww, this might just be one of the sweetest comments I've ever received, on this series for sure ^_^ Thank you a lot for your kind words :)

[midori-masari.livejournal.com]

Short, but very intense. I liked it, although it's different from what I usually read ^^ I haven't read To Submit, but maybe I will~

[a_deux_vitesses.livejournal.com]

I love that you expanded on the concept from the last part of To Submit. It makes me feel... I really don't know what the right word is; it's like, it's startling seeing this side of Hyde and Tetsu's master/slave relationship, but at the same time comforting? I like how they're both so in tume with each other, that even though Hyde himself doesn't see it, that Tetsu knows when he's reached his limit.

The idea of Hyde subconsciously trying to prolong the punishment by questioning his Master's decision is also very interesting.

Ok, I think I've rambled enough ^^' Thank you very much for writing this~

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

It's different from what a LOT of people read it seems >_> The fics of this universe usually tend to be like that, but I can proudly say I have converted quite a few people XD

[radhaj.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry I'm so late with my replies (I'm catching up a bit now). But as always, thank you for your lovely comments :)

Yes, I gues it IS comforting... and relieving to know that they are so good with each other. That seemingly nothing can go wrong, because they're just too good at reading and supporting each other. It's a bit of an idealistic relationship I guess though... I wonder if there are many people who get to find that kind of connection in reality... /random ramblings